I am not really sure where the last few weeks have gone and I am not sure if I am ready to say goodbye to the festive cheer and and relinquish the alarm free mornings....but time and tide wait for no man, I have to face the reality of the the next 7 months of my life. These are the last months of studying, placement and the jobs....I realized during my break that the key to being able to get through so much is motivation.
The thing is, right now I have zero motivation, nothing...my pot is empty and I am literally clawing to keep myself from sinking to the bottom of the well. I am not one for wallowing in self pity but I am happy to admit when I am overwhelmed and and ever so slightly afraid of how much I need to start doing again. So this little blog is a shout out to those who feel overwhelmed about what is expected of you this year and for those who realize just how much motivation is needed to just get through each day.
So what can we do? I suppose I have to reinforce and connect again to why I am doing this, to what makes me happy. For me happiness is several different things, finding a connection with people and sharing commonalities and feeling that i am not alone is vital for me. Finding true meaning in why i do the things i do and being content with who I have become makes me happy. But its also the little things that I hold on to that bring joy to my days, a cold crisp morning with a cup of coffee in my hand, looking out the window on a train when the sun is rising and feeling privileged as everyone else is on their phones. Getting a smile from a stranger, putting my feet up at the end of a day and sharing a nice bottle of wine with my other half. Learning new things and realizing that they clarify my thoughts and feelings. The list could go on forever and already i am feeling better, connecting again, even writing these down revitaliees me and is giving me back the meaning in the day to day loves of my life, yes the next 7 months are going to be tough, relentless and at times I will feel like giving up but I will remember this blog, and sharing this with you will help me keep motivated.
I found a lovely little article that really sums things up for me. Happy 2019, its the little things that make us truly happy, invest in them and acknowledge them.
Seasons greeting everyone
I have just handed in my essay for My Masters, i can honestly say that it really is a privilege to be on this course, to be able to connect and understand about how creative Arts can really work with complex people is truly inspiring.
Dramatherapy (speaking as a student practitioner of course) really explores the concept of metaphor and how powerful this tool is when distancing people from their emotions and trauma enough to explore their feeling and heal. It got me thinking about how difficult the holidays can be for people.
I decided to look at what a Christmas tree presented and symbolized for me? Using it metaphorically to help me through this busy, relentless period leading up to the festivities. My partner and I chose a to have a real tree this year. Something we haven done for 3 years but it felt especially important this week to pause and re-invest in this tradition. I believe that the relevance of this, the healing idea behind this, was for a piece of nature to be indoors with us. Our lives are so fast, so full and so synthetic as well as being surrounded by concrete (Brum Life). The tree and its symbolic meaning represents for me the true meaning of Christmas, authentic, valued and traditional.
Perhaps, if you are having a difficult time this year you can find something to symbolize how you are feeling, or to represent how you would like to feel? Maybe, by being creative and expressing metaphorically a bit of healing may take place. I always re-plant the tree after Christmas and thank it for the beauty and stillness it has provided me. Feel free to share a symbol to represent how you are feeling this time of year.
Here are a few articles on symbolism:
So I sit here looking at 20 books, 11 articles and enough research to cause an implosion in my tiny mind!
I am trying to begin writing an essay for my MA Dramatherapy course. I am drawing a blank, I am feeling the pressure to be a student, BCAT member, cleaner, girlfriend etc - most importantly to understand what Dramatherapy is and what it really means to be a reflective practitioner
My mind is trying to expand and grow and develop but how can this happen if I push myself so hard that I cant even write a sentence?
This lead me to think about all the external pressures that start to seep into our lives and the effect they have upon us to the point of saturation so I found a few interesting bits to read that you too may find useful
I have to work hard each day but I have to pause, relax and be kind to myself too!
(Now…back to that essay!)